Well, my 8 weeks is up. Do you remember my goal? I was going to get FIERCE. Do you remember me saying that? Yeah......I think it's going to take a lot longer than 8 weeks to get me there! :0)
In the past 8 weeks, I have dealt with PTA hell. I have dealt with basement hell. I have dealt with school hell {finals week is NOT fun!}. I have dealt with OCD hell. And last but not least, I have dealt with my own personal hell. Due to the continual burning from the flames of hell....my fierceness took a back seat. I did try to exercise, but didn't stick with it. Which is frustrating. I'm hoping that now that the basement is done I'll be able to get my Tae-Bo back on and whip myself back into shape.
I did lose a few pounds...which is fabulous! But, for the most part I let my sweet tooth win the battles. I have no will power. :0)
BUT! This challenge helped me in other ways. All was not a loss! :0) This challenge was to help us take care of ourselves. Not to just get better physically, but emotionally as well. As we get older, we tend to forget about our needs and take care of those around us. We forget we are still just as important as everyone else. We can sometimes lose ourselves as we dive into the nurturing of others.
The past 8 Weeks has been an eye opener for me. In this sense, I really took this challenge to heart. I wanted to be better. I wanted to FEEL better. After the first two weeks I realized that I knew what was wrong with me. It's been a rough six weeks since then. And honestly, it's going to take longer than this challenge for me to be better. Which is ok. 8 Weeks is a relatively short period of time to completely change. But, it can be a great start. Realizing what my own personal problems were is only the beginning. And honestly, it's kind of depressing knowing how long I've lived this way and I could have been happier all along. Don't get me wrong...I am a happy person. I have my moments, but I have a very happy life. I am blessed and I know it and I am grateful for it. But, I am seeing things a bit clearer now and I can see how much my life has been affected by this. It's a bit of a downer. BUT! Knowledge is power, right? I am pressing forward with a better perspective and a lot of help. :0)
So, do I count the challenge as a win or did I fail? I didn't get fierce physically. But, I'm on a better track of becoming fierce emotionally.....and I think that has to count for something right?
In the past 8 weeks, I have dealt with PTA hell. I have dealt with basement hell. I have dealt with school hell {finals week is NOT fun!}. I have dealt with OCD hell. And last but not least, I have dealt with my own personal hell. Due to the continual burning from the flames of hell....my fierceness took a back seat. I did try to exercise, but didn't stick with it. Which is frustrating. I'm hoping that now that the basement is done I'll be able to get my Tae-Bo back on and whip myself back into shape.
I did lose a few pounds...which is fabulous! But, for the most part I let my sweet tooth win the battles. I have no will power. :0)
BUT! This challenge helped me in other ways. All was not a loss! :0) This challenge was to help us take care of ourselves. Not to just get better physically, but emotionally as well. As we get older, we tend to forget about our needs and take care of those around us. We forget we are still just as important as everyone else. We can sometimes lose ourselves as we dive into the nurturing of others.The past 8 Weeks has been an eye opener for me. In this sense, I really took this challenge to heart. I wanted to be better. I wanted to FEEL better. After the first two weeks I realized that I knew what was wrong with me. It's been a rough six weeks since then. And honestly, it's going to take longer than this challenge for me to be better. Which is ok. 8 Weeks is a relatively short period of time to completely change. But, it can be a great start. Realizing what my own personal problems were is only the beginning. And honestly, it's kind of depressing knowing how long I've lived this way and I could have been happier all along. Don't get me wrong...I am a happy person. I have my moments, but I have a very happy life. I am blessed and I know it and I am grateful for it. But, I am seeing things a bit clearer now and I can see how much my life has been affected by this. It's a bit of a downer. BUT! Knowledge is power, right? I am pressing forward with a better perspective and a lot of help. :0)
So, do I count the challenge as a win or did I fail? I didn't get fierce physically. But, I'm on a better track of becoming fierce emotionally.....and I think that has to count for something right?
14 comments:
It TOTALLY counts. I'm a firm believer in being emotionally healthy first. So many of us defeat ourselves on the inside and that affects us on the outside. Good for you!
Love the picture...
GOod for you!! Realizing the things inside that make us go to the dumps is very important. So you can kick the little brat out of your head, or whatever it is.
I'm glad you found out some important things and know if you need any pep talks that I'll be your personal Matt Foley. Email me any time :*
Hey, you still lost, right? I think sometimes I'm only fierce enough to not gain from the sweets I eat. Sometimes that's progress.
i have been trying to loose weight for 8 months now with no succes... well, I have start fitting into my clothes and I look so much better. but on the scale not one pound! Can you believe that
of course it counts! you have to wrap your brain around making better decisions before you can actually carry them out. congrats!
You didn't fail at all! Nobody truly enjoys exercising or sticks with it constantly. I have to switch my exercise routine with different workouts. If your looking for one that totally tons your whole body try Tony Horton's Beach Body, I love it and do it religiously.
You totally won! Good for you :)
Definitely progress. Be proud of yourself.
You did awesome and it has been a bit of a stressful time hasn't it?
Ashlee, you are so awesome. You are one of my heros, really. I totally think you won. And that picture is absoultely beautiful! Where did you find it?
Bonnie...thank so much! :0)
Google pictures rocks. That's where I find most of my pictures.
Good job Ashlee! Be on the lookout for fun races for us after I have my baby!
ashlee!
it counts for more!
glad your eyes were opened, more opened. best to you, kathleen
I don't know you at all, but I think anytime we grow spiritually or mentally then we've won what ever battle it is that we are fighting. Life sucks sometimes, but if you come out of the tunnel with even an itsy bitsy smile, then you've done well and deserve to hug yourself! G'head!
Give yourself a hug!!
Fabulous picture...wow!
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