Monday, December 22, 2008

Potentially Dangerous...

Do you remember when Britney Spears went crazy and shaved her head....and then attacked a car with an umbrella. Sometimes....

I get it.

You know...a string of frustrations and you just need to scream. Or talk with a British accent for no apparent reason.....

Thankfully....I tend to resort to coloring my hair rather than shaving it all off. And instead of smashing in a car window with an umbrella I eat chocolate. {I don't have to worry about all those papparazzi taking pictures of me stuffing my face like poor Britney}

Why am I talking about Britney Spears you ask? Good question.

I have been going to school full time, non-stop since February. One set of classes ends on a Sunday and the next set begins the very next day. My brain is on overload. Just as I finish up my final projects for one set of classes, I have to hurry and get familiar with the information for the next set. After this last change up I thought I was going to go crazy. Understandably, as I get further along in school, my classes keep getting harder. Want to know what else changes with each new rotation of classes?

The level of cleanliness in my home....it's scary.
The amount of time I sit in front of this computer.....can you say blood shot eyes?
My ability to stay organized in other areas.....freakishly erratic.
My extra time for me.....almost non-existent.
The quality of the meals I make for my family....it's almost a form of neglect.
The time I have for hanging out with my family....NOT ENOUGH.

My OCD tendencies are screaming for attention. I can't block out the clutter in my home any longer. I can't cram one more piece of random information into my head. My kids and my hubby need some quality time with dear old me. My son wanted to know how much longer I was going to have to do this. He went bug-eyed when I told him I had at least 2 1/2 years before I could actually get a position in the field of psychology. What I didn't tell him was that I would have a couple more years after that in order to get my master's degree.

So, hallelujah! Today is day one of fourteen where I have NO schoolwork. I've got two weeks of holiday time where I don't even have to crack open a book. AND....when holiday break is over, I only have one week of school left in this block before I am taking a personal break for another week. That will give me time before I have to jump into more deep thinking. :0)

And....I won't have to worry about ending up like Miss Britney Spears. I don't think I would look good with a shaved head...it's kind of bumpy. :0)

5 comments:

Becky said...

hats off to you my dear for all you are pulling off. Don't think I could manage that. I loved this post and your honesty. Makes me feel better knowing that my OCD tendencies scream out too. Have a nice break and enjoy your family - you deserve it. :)

Shannon said...

Good luck with all of that chaos! Hope you have time to enjoy your holiday! Merry Christmas!

Bonnie B. said...

I'm so glad you have a break! It sounds like you need it. Have fun with your family! Merry Christmas!!

Barbara said...

Keep going...and you are wise to put out little mile stones to help you get through..You must be so proud of your progress!!
What is your major?
Enjoy your family while you have a break...your house will still be there when your done;)
Merry Christmas.
B.

Jamee said...

Good for you Ashlee, hang in there!! Its so so hard.....take it easy and spend time extra time with the family but dont forget some good ole R and R for you!!!